I Want To Hate You...You Ended Me This Way

The End

2005-10-16T16:02:52Z

I've decided to give up on livejournal.

If you wanna continue to keep track of me you can reach me at.
My Xnaga Journal

Elk River Part 3

2005-10-01T23:06:30Z

Another weekend in Elk River.
Goods times.

So Im sending cyberhugs to Kid. Everyone else should too.
Why?
Because she rocks. Der.

So yeah. Finalize me.

We used to mix hen with bacardi dark
And when it kicks in you can hardly talk
And by the sixth gin you gon probly crawl
And you'll be sick then and you'll probly barf

Drug Ballad
Eminem

Another Day Has Come And Passed

2005-09-26T12:54:17Z

So. I spent almost the entire weekend in...we'll say an "altered" state of mind.
I loved it.
Nothing else muchly new...missed another day of school. That I don't like...but yeah I guess when you're sick, you're sick.

I got to talk to Kayla....that made me happy. She says she's doing good.
I just want her to come here and make things okay.
Meine schon liebe

It's a violent reaction
The mixtape in your heart
The answer you should know
How we complicate, a simple mistake
It's the face you make when I go

City Noise//Scarling

Hmm...anything interesting? Oh yeah, nope

2005-09-23T00:01:11Z

So I got another email from Dustin....I suppose that was the highlight of my day. He should be sending pictures too. That'll be loads of fun.

School sucks and it's boring...I guess Im making some new friends though. Found a Friday hang out spot...which Im loving....so far at least.

Well because my life is sooo orgasmically boring...that's all I really have to update on.

Desert ice cream eyes so deceiving fraternize carefully
Create vision fabricate smash to pieces watch and wait crash glass houses

Glass Houses//Skinny Puppy

Elk River

2005-09-19T15:12:52Z

What happens in Elk River, stays in Elk River

Werd.

Burn your truth,
make you believe in god
make you believe in ghosts
make you believe in me

Make You Believe//Scarling

My Dead Taryn

2005-08-22T20:32:43Z

So. My Taryn kitty died yesterday. Someone left a door open and the wind blew it closed and broke his neck.
God is fucking cruel

RIP

It's a bull-shit, three-ring
Circus sideshow

Aenema//Tool

Spider Bites And Soup

2005-08-19T06:10:04Z

So today I noticed I have these nasty spider bites on my arm. You can acutally see where the little fang holes are. Gross.

Dustin called today :)...well yesterday technincally but my cell phone service was so shitty that I lost the call like three times. I hate Verizon Wireless. Anyways he graduates today so yippy!!!

AND I got a letter from Kayla today. What a sweetie.

And Im eating way nummy soup!

Kiss moi.

Charli und loves Dustin

At the right place
At the right time
How does it feel?

Stare At The Sun//MDFMK

Michelle Rodriguez

2005-08-12T05:05:45Z

So I have found a new relative obsession.
Miss Michelle Rodriguez

And...I believe it is just about time for a new layout. I shall poke around and see what I can do.

Charli loves Dustin

I walked down to the other end of the day,
Just to catch those last few rays.
I held out my hand and slowly waved goodbye,
I turned now my eyes up to the sky.

Alone//Tool

A Tragic Loss Of Sanity

2005-08-10T19:43:54Z

So my KhittiahCaht is still stuck up North...she comes home tomorrow. I swear when I see her Im going to grab her and smother her in kisses. I feel like Im going insane here with all these guys and no female interaction. Silly Kittiah...come back.

Armageddon, we're not begging
For too much I don't think
Just need a goodbye kiss

Armageddon//Alkaline Trio

Meine Liebe's Sweet Sixteen

2005-08-07T07:31:00Z

So my darling Kayla is 16 today. I wish I could give her a big hug and tell her I love her.
Grr.

So anyways. Quietdrive show tonight. Good times. I got to hang with Dez. I love you if you are reading. Wewt.

So um yes. Nothing else muchly new. Kittie's stuck at her cabin till Thursday. That sucks way majorly. So now I will go. Buahaha.

Can you help me?
Take a picture before I paint over her,
She is beautiful,
She was everything.
I miss her.

Two Day Romance//Converge

Today Suceeds!!

2005-07-22T00:50:34Z

Well today turned around considerably! I finally got my letter from Dustin, god I was so happy, I pulled it out of the mailbox and started crying. Then I actually read it and I just sobbed. It was so sweet. I really way miss him and I wish he could just come home. I don’t get to see him again till Christmas, which is so blessed far away. Meh, well at least I won’t be alone, me and Hilarie are both part of the emo-long-distance-boyfriends club. Things will turn out okay, and now Ive got a smeksy letter to read whenever Im feeling down.

Morgy’s boyfriend messed up big time today, I wish I could just give her a huge huge and tell her things will be okay. Poor baby girl.

I less than three dustin

Where are you?
Please believe in me.
I'm not hanging up the phone
'Til I hear you say,
I love you.

Summerwind Was Always Our Song//The Ataris

Day 16: Break Me Down

2005-07-21T15:28:24Z

Well it's only 10:30 and today already sucks. I got a 46/60 on my drivers ed test, I needed 51, so now I have to go back tomorrow. *dies* I hate drivers ed, it's so boring.

Ha. And my father just went on a 20 minute rant about how he thinks Im depressed. Please. God. People are so stupid. He says Im too angry all the time. -_-

I less than three mein Dustin.

The thoughts from my mind
Feel the joy as the needle hits my vein

Four Walls//Staind

15 Days And Counting

2005-07-21T02:54:44Z

I fuggin miss my Dustin. Somebody make him come home. Im sposed to get a letter from him soon, I check the mail like 3485439853 times a day before it actually gets here. Stupid Texas. O.o
O.O

*dies*

Cause I am due for a miracle
Im waiting for a sign
Stare straight into the sun
And I wont close my eyes
Untill I understand or go blind

Stare At The Sun//Thrice

My Heart Is Stuck In The Microwave

2005-07-08T18:43:22Z

Blah.

Dustin is now gone to Texas, for 7 weeks, then he goes straight to California (instead of coming home) because the military is filled with power hungry mongrels. And he'd be mad if he heard me say that. I miss him. *eskimo kisses for my Dustin*

I also found out that I got mono from sharing pop with Dustin's best friend. So yay grand party there. Gr. I have become a net whore again. Wewt.

Charli fuggin hearts her Dustin. Mkay?

You came to me like a dream.
The kind that always leaves
Just as the best part starts.
It ends so abruptly

Bleeder//Alkaline Trio

Whoa Kid is the New God

2005-06-26T03:51:42Z

Kid did an astrology reading for me. Strangly accurate.

Irreversible17: saturn was in the 9th house when you were born, meaning your a realist, you show your fears easily; age scares you, as does coldness and winter,;you become wiser after tests, sacrifices and failure. philosophy is one of your stronger points

I know it's not the right thing
And I know it's not the good thing
But kinda I want to

Kinda I Want To//Nine Inch Nails

Davidscwanz

2005-06-16T09:07:04Z

Well kids I am sad to say that dear David (the foreign exchange student) has gone back home to sweet Berlin. Grawr!! Im gonna miss that goofy kid.

Charli und David, June 14, 2005

Hours pass into minutes, kissing the seconds away,
And days seem to melt just like your classic summers.

Getawway Plan//Funeral For A Friend

Ode To Hilarie

2005-06-14T04:45:23Z

I have a message for Meine Hilarie.

ThUgG nAsTy!!!!

Werd.

So you're striking but you're savage
When you cut into my beautiful infection

Candy//Lovedrug

Summer Sucks So Far

2005-06-12T10:20:58Z

Wow. Im sleepy but I don't feel like sleeping so I'll update then...sleep.

Me and Kittie got in another car accident Friday. Dan (Kittie's boyfriend) tboned some car at an intersection and totalled the front of his car. Kittie had to go to the hospital to get her chest checked out because of the seat belt but she's okay. I dunna what I would do if she'd gotten badly injured >.<

Dustin and I are back together. That makes me happy. I've really missed him. Let's hope we can make things work this time around...this fourth time around. Dear god. Whatever. Love prevails.

Hmm...oh yeah, Im working on gettin my website hosted and Angel's helping me with a new layout. Damn this CSS stuff though. I don't get it and Im about ready to eat my computer

fjlalsdfjsdf *eats puter*

There now I can go to sleep.

Almost...

Your Deadly Sins

Sloth: 80%

Wrath: 60%

Envy: 40%

Gluttony: 20%

Greed: 20%

Pride: 20%

Lust: 0%

Chance You'll Go to Hell: 34%

You will die while sleeping - and no one will notice.

How Sinful Are You?

There. Now Im done for real.

I know your bad for me
It makes me want you more
I will do anything
Cause I'm your filthy whore.

Precious Nothing//Deadstar Assembly

Seniority Sucks

2005-06-09T02:53:51Z

Blah!! Today was the last day of school for the lucky seniors, I on the other hand have one more friggin day. Blah blah blah!! Anyways, I saw my senior friend Matt today after school and he was all happy about graduating so I stuck my hand out to give him a high five and he just picks me up off the ground and whirls me around in a circle. Then Dustin (who'd just gotten done running for gym or something) came and rubbed his sweaty face all over my neck. Ick. Then he picked me up and was all "blah I graduated". Silly kids!! I got picked up so much today! Wild.

But now that we know for sure
They're telling lies when they say
No one gets hurts and therefore nobody dies

Metal Heart//Garbage

Someone Loves Me

2005-06-08T05:55:49Z

This made me feel really loved.

Tis the ring and pink panther doll I gave Angel last year when I saw her in Texas.

Cause babe you and I
Don't you know
We got something that's beautiful

Speachless//Blindside

Sleepyhead

2005-06-07T21:37:11Z

Wow today I woke up at 3:30PM and I totally didn't even realize that I'd missed school. It was weird. Well Thursday is my last day thank god!!

I really want to watch a movie with Kittie right now. Im all in a movie mood, plus she's a great person to sit outside and just talk to. *sighzors*

On a last note. I hate people. I really wish you could just warp them to be okay with your desicions because it would make a lot more people hurt less and it would mean a lot more people wouldn't hurt people as much. If that makes any sense. Blah.

Overthinking
Overanalyzing
Separates the body from the mind
Withering my intuition
Missing opportunities

Lateralus//Tool

I.Hate.Canoes.

2005-06-03T04:50:32Z

Wow. Today Kittie and I went canoing (sp?) for a 9th grade field trip type thing. Twas a lot more work than I thought it would be and I ache. Poor Charli. Poor Kittie (she did most of the work because I have no muscle and am therefore a weak paddler). Blah. Sleepy.

Formal tomorrow! That means new pcitures yay!

Dedicated to the end
Help me break my conscience in
To free us from our innocence

Break My Fall//Breaking Benjamin

Set In Skin

2005-06-02T03:06:17Z

I will set you up for the fall.
And let you take it.
You'll find it odd that I smile the whole time.
I won't.
I've made a pact in my veins.
It is set in skin.
You have no chance for survival.

There’s close enough
And there’s too far
It won’t change an empty stare
But I can’t seem to end
These images

Panic Prone//Chevelle

Cam Whore

2005-05-30T07:08:13Z

My Bleeding Edge Doll I bought in Texas last year with Angel <3

The hawt pillow Kittie made for me. Im sad you can't see it real well.

Hawt Blend Angel made

More artsy Angel stuff

More.

My ticket from MSI. I got it signed. Woot!!

My dress for our Freshmen Formal Dance thing

Muh baby Pink Panther I got from Angel <3

The pictures in my previous cam whore post ( May 15th ) have now been deleted.

My Artistry Vibe Fails

2005-05-30T03:34:36Z

Gahd!! I am vurry pissed. I have this rad picture I drew this weekend and it's all fancy and on canvas paper and I really wanted to paint it. Not so! While I was with Kittie at her grandparents this weekend my little brothers took my paints and brushes and used all of my black paint (which is needed for this picture)and they didn't rinse the brushes off after they used them so they're all ruined.

Growl.

All you maggots, smoking fags
Out there on Sunset Boulevard

Lost In Hollywood//System Of A Down